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First post for 2013! Hope I can manage this blog. HEHEH!
POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Saturday, March 30, 2013 @ 12:42 AM
Having a haircut, and moving on.
For us females, cutting our hair means two things; either there would be a new phase on their lives or it could be a part of forgetting something and moving on.  Recently, I went to the salon near our house and have my hair trimmed after months of attempting and asking my boyfriend if I should get a cut. Having a curly hair from my dad’s genes, I’m always putting my hair up coz my hair is so unmanageable. Now that it’s been a year since I had my rebond treatment, you could see a line on my hair. Plus tons of split ends in which made my hair look so dry.
As what I’ve said earlier; there’s a reason for a girl if she had her haircut.  On my case, I have both reasons.

·         New beginning
Finally, after months of being a bum, we found a part time nanny. That means I can
now go with job hunting and interviews. I won’t get tired of submitting my resumes on different companies as well as attending job fairs until I land a job. I know these days its s damn hard looking for one, it’s all about patience and faith with God. Whenever I got rejected from a company, I just put in my mind that God didn’t want me to be on that field, that He has a better plan for me.

·         Ending
There are tons of dramas on my heart that I’ve been carrying for a year. Emotional, eh? As the haircutter started to raise the scissor and my hair strands goes straight to the floor, I’m saying all those stuffs on my heart. Au revoir, shitness.

I guess a haircut is what I needed to be back. I started the week with couples of interviews and I proved that she’s my true one; I’d rather kept the name. Though we lost communication for years, nothing changed between our relationships. I just felt so worthless coz I lost my pair of the gift I gave to her birthday.


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POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Sunday, July 8, 2012 @ 12:00 AM

Scrolling Tumblr, found these pics that explain what's my emotion at the moment.

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With all the obstacle I'm facing now in finding a job (plus some personal problems), this typography enlighten up me.  








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Badly needed.




  
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Follow thy rules

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Yes, it's true. And I guess I'm one of it.

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You might be the damn one.

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For you, and you, and you!


As what I always said, "Keep calm and leave the shits behind." I need to focus, focus and focus. Oh God, help me please? 

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THIS.

AND THIS.

POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Wednesday, June 13, 2012 @ 12:27 AM
Got ya, Gotye!
Somebody I used to know
by Gotye

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end 
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off 
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing 
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believin it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh

But you didn't have cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger 
and that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number (oh)
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (somebody) (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know
I used to know
Somebody

Parang ang awkward naman na sabihan mo ang isang tao nyan, pero ano magagawa mo? Maaaring naaalala mo ang mga bagay na naramdaman o nangyari sayo na involve sya kaya gusto mo nang kalimutan sya. Kaya naging 'somebody you used to know' na lang siya sa buhay mo.

Balik tayo sa kanta, narinig ko sya sa commercial ng Gossip Girl sa ETC. Yung scene kung saan tinalikuran ni Blair si Chuck, biding goodbye thing. Hinanap ko sa Google, viola! Paulit ulit kong pinakinggan, dinownload para kahit wala akong internet eh mapapakinggan ko. Habang ninanamnam ko ang kanta, napaisip ako. Sino ba sa buhay ko ang ngayon ay naging somebody that I used know na?

Siya ba? Maaring siya nga (gagawa ako ng blog para dyan). Pero twing iisipin ko, kahit paano  naging masaya naman ako nung magkasama kami. Fuck! Those memories, 80% ayaw ko nang balikan yan. Pero meron pang isa, isang tao na maaari kong pag alayan ng kanta na yan. Ngunit nanghihinayang ako kung ganyan man ang mangyayari sa amin :( Oo, ako nagkamali at nagkulang. Pero maaari naman na ikaw din ang magsimula ng bagong kabanata natin diba?


Lyrics here :)


POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Friday, June 8, 2012 @ 12:39 AM

20 Things I've Learned From My 20

  1. You can’t date a jerk and expect to turn them into a good person. Jerks are fully committed to being unpleasant. Those brief moments of tenderness they give you are designed to trip you up and give you false hope. It’s best to stay away altogether.
  2. The rumors are true: your metabolism does slow down as you get older! That means if you’re still eating whatever you want, there’s a good chance you’ll start to gain an awkward amount of weight. It won’t be too drastic but your clothes will start to hang differently on your body and you’ll feel an overall feeling of unattractiveness. Start to be conscious of what you eat and strive to live a healthier lifestyle if you want to get your teen body back. (Let’s be real though, that might not ever come back.)
  3. You’re going to lose touch with a lot of your friends. With some people, it will be expected but with others it will feel like a punch to the stomach. No friendship is truly safe in your twenties. You’re undergoing so many personal and professional changes that there’s bound to be some casualties along the way. Don’t worry though. You’ll end up with the ones that matter. If someone’s no longer in your life, it’s for a reason.
  4. You’ll be jealous of everyone who’s more successful than you. That’s okay. Just transfer that jealousy into something productive, like working really hard so you can one day eclipse them and make them feel jealous of YOU.
  5. You’ll question every decision you make and never feel completely certain that you made the right choice. It’s pointless to wonder though. You’re here now so you might as well make it be the right decision.
  6. You’re going to give your heart to a few people who don’t deserve it. Then, one day you’ll come to your senses and ask them to give it back.
  7. You’ll see your parents get older. You’ll come home during Christmas break and see new lines developing on their faces. One day it’ll just hit you that your parents are old and going to die. There’s nothing you can do about it, besides treat them with kindness and visit as much as your budget permits.
  8. You’ll have a boss who makes you feel like you’re nothing. It doesn’t have to be in a Devil Wears Prada way. The cruelty can be much more subtle. Don’t let them get to you though. They have no idea who the hell you really are and you’re probably going to have their job someday so…
  9. Doing drugs is fun until it’s not, until it starts affecting your life in negative ways and leaves you feeling guilty and wrecked. If that happens, you should stop doing them.
  10. You’re going to puke in public. It’s fine. No one cares. Just puke.
  11. You’ll know how to make twenty dollars last an entire week because you spent almost all of your paycheck on groceries at Whole Foods and drunk cab rides. This lesson in frugality will serve you well.
  12. You’re going to betray your convictions. You’re going to feel shame. You’re going to continue to put yourself in situations that aren’t good for you. And then, slowly but surely, it will become less frequent. It might not ever go away completely but it won’t be as bad. In the meantime, stop shame spiraling about it. It gets you nowhere.
  13. Loving yourself is hard. Hating yourself is harder.
  14. You’re going to hook up with someone who you would never touch in the daylight sober. Just don’t freak out too much about it. Consider it to be your good deed for the day.
  15. You’re going to have people in your life who are toxic. They may say that they love you, they may say that they have your back, but they don’t. Get rid of them.
  16. You’ll have moments with someone that are so intense, it’ll feel like you’ve been electrocuted back to life. You’ll hold on to these moments for a long time. They’ll give you hope when you’re going through the motions.
  17. You’ll always care about your first love. That doesn’t make you crazy, it just makes you human. When relationships end, it’s not so cut and dry. You carry everyone you’ve ever loved into every relationship thereafter.
  18. You’ll enter your twenties as a fashion disaster and (hopefully) leave them looking fantastic. If you don’t know how to put yourself together by then, I really don’t know what to tell you.
  19. You’ll realize that the Internet can be a cruel son of a bitch but, you know, www.whatever.com.
  20. So much of what you think matters doesn’t actually matter at all. It’s kind of rude. Like, thanks for making me believe in things that are ultimately so inconsequential, you jerk.
  21.  You’ll treat someone terribly. Whether it to be a lover or your friend, there’ll be someone whose feelings you take for granted. We focus too much on whether or not someone is hurting us. The reality is that we might actually be the one who’s hurting someone.
  22. Doing “grown-up things” doesn’t make you a grown up. Shopping for housewares, buying a plant, embracing domesticity — these things don’t create maturity. If you’re still a baby who hasn’t figured things out, you’ll remain a baby, no matter how many times you pay your rent on time.
  23. Don’t force yourself into loving anyone. If it’s not working in the beginning, it’s probably not going to work ever.
  24. You are so lucky to have everything that you have. Stop crying about an unreturned text message and get some perspective.
  25. Don’t go too long without having sex. Ever.
Got this from April's blogspot. As what she said, BEST LIST EVER :)
POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Thursday, June 7, 2012 @ 3:02 PM
Realisasyon
June na pala, ang bilis bilis talaga ng panahon.. Ilang buwan narin akong tengga sa bahay, palamunin, tagapag alaga ng kapatid, bum, walang pera. Ilng buwan narin nang huli kong makita mga college friends ko.. Boyfriend ko naman once a month lang kami nagkikita sa SM. Hayst, paano ko nakaya to?

August 2011
Masaya dahil natapos na ang OJT. After ng event, balik Caloocan dahil birthday ng kapatid ko. Tapos pumunta ng Malabon, balik sa Ortigas para sa certificate. Pinasa sa school, viola!
Magsisimula na akong maghanda sa pag aapply nang biglang sinabi ni Ate L (tagapag alaga nila James at Micah) na uuwi sya sa Batanes. Ang intial reaction ko? WHATTHEFUCK! Pero wala parin akong nagawa :(

Novermber 2011
Ayos! May nakita na tagapag alaga! Pakak! Nakasama ako kay ate Khattie sa Run for a River, bongga! More than 15 hours akong gising hahahha, dun ako literal na naging masandig lang kung saan, tulog na. Hahahaha

December 2011
NYAHAHAHA. Pansamantala akong nagkaroon ng trabaho gawa may project sa office ng pinsan ko. Parang nag oOJT lang ako, pero may bayad. Okey naman kahit paano ang naganap, napasaya ko si Mama, James at Micah sa simpleng cake para sa Christmas at New Year. Si Babab at yung family nya, at si Nanay :) Akala ko may kasunod pa yun :(

January 2012
Bora daw muna ako, okeyy. Magsisismula na ako ulit mag apply kaso may papasukan daw sa Las Pinas ang tagapag alaga, meaning ako ulit ang mag aalaga kina James. Tinanggap ko na, ako yung tipo nang tao na kahit nasaan ako once na magtext mama ko eh uuwi na ako.

Sabi ng mga college friends ko, subukan ko naman daw ienjoy ang buhay. nakagimmick naman din ako kahit paano, ang dinahilan ko eh may tinatapos kaming project. Pero naguilty ako, kaya di ko na inulit. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, gimmick? Magagawa ko rin naman yan kahit na 30 years old ako. Ewan  ko ba pero parang minsan di nila gets yung ugali ko na ito, wala naman magagawa dahil ako ang pinaka panganay at single parent lang ang mama ko.

Twing wala ako ginagawa or nag eemote ako, naiisip ko. Ano ang gustong iparating sa akin ni God at bakit Niya binigay ito sa akin? Ngayon alam ko na, kaya Niya binigay ito sa akin dahil nais Niya na pahalagahan ko ang pamilya ko. Ngayon, lagi lagi na kaming may pinagkukwentuhan ni Mama sa gabi bago matulog. Natututo narin ako magluto ng ilang putahe, naiispired tuloy ako mag aral sa culinary school ni Pastry :) Kung minsan man ay nagtatalo kami ng kapatid ko, normal lang naman yun. At the end of the day, nagsosorry naman ako sa kanila.

Ngayon na simula na ulit ang class nila James, nakahanap na ulit ng mag aalaga sa kanila. Makakahanap na rin ako ng trabaho! Yes! Pero gusto ko dito ako uuwi sa amin, parang di ko kaya na di sila makita. WALANG HALONG KAECHOSAN TO.

POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Monday, June 4, 2012 @ 3:49 PM
The Fickle is back!
As usual, I woke up late today. I didn't attend the 6 or 8 am mass in our church. As I fixing all the mess in our house, Mom's phone rang and it's Tito M. I answered it, he told me that I should go to his house because it's Jairus' christening. I replied with "this", he replies me with "that". So I just waited for Mom and Micah to be home from church to prepare for the event.

Supposedly, I'll be the 'replacement' for Sah (she didn't make it to the event because of an earlier priority), so I need to be at Scared Heart Parish before 11am. But thanks for my PMS and 'Tamad moments", I'm still inside an UV Express van at exactly 11am! Praise to the people behind UV Express, its definitely the most convenient transpo for carless people like me if you want to reach MRT - Quezon Ave or Trinoma/SM North Edsa (if I'm going to Malabon) in less than 40 minutes without traffic. 

Seating next to the window will always be my favorite. Reminiscing, what ifs, I should've...these were the words popping to my mind while looking at the window, passing by different situations in our country. "What if she just wear other clothes?" "I should have use my other bag." "Oh, I remember this place. We used to eat here." Here comes Commonwealth, how I wish that EDSA could be as wide as Commonwealth! For sure, there would be no traffic at all. Passed by St. Peters, Techno (my birthday blues), then we reach Q Ave.

Got a missed call from Tita (I always put my phone in to silent, I forgot to change it), sent a message to my Tito asking for directions or what should I tell to the tricycle driver.. As I reach South Triangle, there's Tita waiting for me. She wasn't able to attend the church ceremony, too. A lot of chats while waiting for the people whose still in the church.. And when they arrived, define SHOCK. 

Yeah, my world turned 360 degrees in a jiffy. I told myself that I made the right choice on attending this event. Me and Anna met again after 5 years though no one of us leaved the country. Seeing my little cousins whom the last time we bond were way back 2010, when we had picnic at Quezon Memorial Circle. Ryan (whose 8-9 years younger than me) and mine's height were always the same :)

MY LESSON: Don't be afraid to take a risk. But be sure you're strong enough to face what could happens :)
POSTED BY Jhie Viñas ON Monday, May 28, 2012 @ 1:03 AM
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